T-A-N-K-E-D

OMG I COMPLETELY tanked on my audition.  TOTALLY.  How devastatingly disappointing.  No really.  I don't know if I'll be good enough to get in since they had 100 people audition but I know I didn't get a call back.  It's funny b/c I was getting so excited and confident because I'm gaining control over my belt and I'm starting to sound really impressive.  My last two auditions I did a little belt and got noticed and the last play I had the 2nd largest female role.  So here I am at home, singing and it's sounding good and I have a big voice so control has always been one of my biggest issues if I want to show it off, unless I choose to sing normal and not try to show the power in my voice.  So I was doing SO well that I thought I could do it.  Remember, I'd done it a little before.  My last audition I had people in the audience whoop and cheer.

SO..................... this time I was feeling pretty darn good.  Confident.  I'd warmed up.  And when I went up there I felt calm.  Naturally the tempo of the accompaniest wasn't good.  They say she'll follow me but bless her, she wasn't good enough to follow any of the singers' tempos.  I don't blame her, it's a hard skill, but it also makes for a hard audition.  First it was too slow, then too fast.  I didn't want to be picky so I just went for it.  The part I had planned to sing, I belted.  The part I planned to belt came out shouty.  beh!  I came off shaking from the adrenaline.  Darn adrenaline.  It's like everything I'd rehearsed was turned up two notches.

Ah well.  The lesson for this audition: don't do a belting song.  My voice is big enough that if I sing a normal song they can tell it will carry.  I heard other people with lil voices get call backs b/c they sang well.  And if adrenaline turns me up a notch, then they'll get some power anyway.

Lesson for me: NEVER attempt to belt during an audition.

I wonder if I still have a chance.



P.S. I'm not REALLY in a devastated mood, don't come on too strong with the condolences.  My emot-icon is just feeling dramatic.  It's part of the audition process and not a big deal.  Still, I wonder if I might still get in...